May 31st, 2005

Time: 07:59 pm

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April 25th, 2005

Current Music: Jack johnson Subject: Shit son Time: 09:05 pm Current Mood: annoyed

I am now employed.

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April 2nd, 2005

Current Music: closer Subject: Sometimes, lonely hearts, they just get lonelier Time: 10:08 pm Current Mood: disappointed

So I fucked up huh. He hurt me and I still feel like it was somehow my fault and that I should be the one apologizing.Everyone told me not to get involved with him but I was too stupid to listen.Basically I've been the biggest bitch and said some of the dumbest things lately..and half of me feels it was justified and the other half just wishes i could take it back.I guess I wish he would just say something to me..I'd rather be able to talk to him about some of the stuff that happened than him just ignore me. And I wish even more that he actually meant the stuff he said. -and last night i got totally fucked up and got the guts to call danny's house, even though i knew he wasn't home..and gaylynn answered...weird i was too drunk and shouldn't have called because it just ended up being a huge mess because i started talking to her about stuff. I don't remember everything that was said but I do know that as soon as we hung up the phone I just fricken fell apart and starting bawling in front of everyone and like 15 people surrounded me and told me he wasn't worth it and it pissed me off because they don't know a goddam thing because even with what he's done I still can't find a way to say that he's not worth it. I'm so pathetic. and it didn't help that i was drunk on top of being completely emotional already. so i finally got calmed down and i was like i'm fine...until aaron(whos like been in love with me and has tried to be with me for 2 years and is jealous as hell of danny) wouldn't stop talking about how danny treats me so bad...so i just started bursting into tears all over again...which turned into me being sick as heck and spending an hour in the bathroom(sweet huh)then i finally felt better and i went to join the party again but i sat there for like 2 hours and didn't speak to anyone until this weird guy i never met drew me a picture thing and it made me feel better. Hmm..I really wish things could have gone differently and I wish daniel would just stop to think because he's so much better than that.

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March 30th, 2005

Subject: stupid fucking whores Time: 10:00 am

GAYLYNN AND KRYSTAL ARE THE NASTIEST SLUTS IN THE ENTIRE WORLD AND I HOPE THEY DIE.

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March 17th, 2005

Subject: k cool. Time: 11:41 am

Okay so I guess some girls have been reading my journal and reporting back to Danny about it? Really creepy. I'm glad people are disgusting. Apparently these girls (I don't know who they are) told Danny that I wrote all about him and how i love him and me and him are bf/gf and that nobody can ever have him but me? yeah..that sounds JUST like all my posts? actually i've never heard anything more ridiculous in my entire life because i ALWAYS make sure people know we're NOT going out and we're just hanging out. So I'm pretty sure all you girls can shut your mouth and find something better to do cause Danny told me you're really gross. on a happier note, i talked to amber yesturday and i saw her and baby! it was really nice to finally see someone cause i've got a life sentence of grounding. i'm really gonna miss danny.<3<----yep..I am going to miss him,this doesn't translate into "I love danny and we're going out" bitch.

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March 14th, 2005

Current Music: count the stars Subject: <3 This must be love <3 Time: 12:01 pm Current Mood: bored

So I'm back to blonde. And I chopped all my hair off again. ehh I'm not exactly jumping up and down over it, but it works. yeah so i'm not going to be grounded any longer cause i'm moving to my dad's. so hopefully i'll have more interesting updates. who made danny a cd? yeah that's right me. **What's the cutest thing your bf/gf has done for you???

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March 9th, 2005

Current Music: dcfc-lightness Subject: worry stops where faith begins... Time: 11:58 am Current Mood: excited

So Danny wrote me a poem? I'm so excited to get it. <3love

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March 7th, 2005

Current Music: look what you've done-jet Subject: THIS BLOWS Time: 11:38 am Current Mood: depressed

So I'm grounded for...like an eternity. Yeah they took my car and my phone and this sucks. I really like Danny.<3 and I miss him. The months they dont matter its the days i cant take when the hours move to minutes and im seconds away.

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March 3rd, 2005

Current Music: november-azure ray Subject: I wish I had a parachute cuz I’m falling bad for you Time: 11:55 am Current Mood: depressed

We might kiss when we are alone When nobody's watching I might take you home We might make out when nobody's there It's not that we're scared It's just that it's delicate So why do you fill my sorrow With the words you've borrowed From the only place you've known And why do you sing Hallelujah If it means nothing to you WHY DO YOU SING WITH ME AT ALL? We might live like never before When there's nothing to give Well how can we ask for more We might make love in some sacred place The look on your face is delicate So why do you fill my sorrow With the words you've borrowed From the only place you've known And why do you sing Hallelujah If it means nothing to you WHY DO YOU SING WITH ME AT ALL? ^^^^^^ Seriously..can I just stop thinking about him for two seconds or what? I'm a fuckin moron. Cool for bad days huh? Well I think it'd be pretty neat if somebody cheered me up. Try.

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February 28th, 2005

Subject: "One cut for every kiss..." Time: 11:41 am

"if there’s a dude in the room she’ll think he wants to screw her she’s got no clue no clue" So this weekend was crazy Fucked up. I'm really pissed at her. So are about 345985435491 million other people. She's a slut..don't let her near your men. She's an STD infected bitch. She kissed danny. Maybe we should get rowdy and show her how we get down, I kill bitches. Anybody else ever have problems because a certain girl can't just stop having sex/fooling around with everyone?

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February 23rd, 2005

Subject: You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say Time: 12:14 pm Current Mood: worried

<3YOU ARE PAPER CRANES, AND MESSY HAIR, AND FRECKLES, AND HEAVY EYESLIDS, AND FIRST LIQUOR, AND NO SHEETS ON THE MATTRESS, AND PERFECT FITS IN BETWEEN MY FINGERS, AND TIRED EYES, AND BEAUTIFUL.<3 -Seriously..I'm really doing a dangerous thing by falling for him. Has anyone else ever known it wasn't going to work out..and went for it anyway, just because you love who you are when you're with that person. And you really don't care how bad he hurts you and you'll just keep going back just because you'd rather have that then never be with them at all? Yeah i'm a fucking moron. Give you're thoughts on the matter please. Trish.

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February 15th, 2005

Subject: I could go play the fool for you. Time: 11:43 am Current Mood: hopeful

Okay..so I heard probably the most ridiculous thing ever yesturday. I about killed myself, I have to keep my mouth shut so none of you will know what it is,but I'm sure it'll be out soon. No doubt you'll all feel my pain. I hate her. So yesturday was Valentine's Day. I thought it was going to suck..but it ended up being nice. <Danny3,I,Amber,and Adan went to the movies and then back to Amber's for a bit. So I need something to do this weekend, it's freakin midwinter break. booyah. c/m 578-8400. eye.el.oh.vee.E.why.oh.you. -trish. WHY SHOULD I TAKE YOUR HAND WHEN YOU CAN'T PROMISE HAPPY ENDINGS?

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February 14th, 2005

Subject: Happy Valentines Time: 11:40 am

Hey all. Happy Valentine's Day. Yeah..so I was chillen with Amanda at school and I made her a Valentine card in spanish class..and we were at our locker when i gave it to her and danny walks up..and i'm all like "aww yeah heres a valentine from me amanda cause i don't have a valentine." and danny goes "you can be my valentine" hhaha . cute. but now he's being all stoner about it and is like.."well idk if we'll do anything cause idk..i'll call you after work" so i'm like cool. so i'm not sure if i'm gonna do anything for valentines or not, cause knowing danny he's probably got like 10 dates already lined up! haha kiddin i love the kid. <33 muah bitches.

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February 11th, 2005

Subject: I'm drunk off your kiss for another night in a row Time: 11:57 am

So I got my car. eh..it's not the greatest but it works for me. Holler at me and we'll hang(578-8400). I've been spending an abnormal abundance of my time at Amber's with Lexibaby. I <3 her. I had a pretty good weekend last weekend..and weird..it's Friday already. it seems like the week just started. I didn't go to school until like..I don'tknow i think i went on Wednesday,then i tried to go on Thursday but it didn't work out so me Amanda and Steph just went to Amber's for the day. and I'm here today. I'm failing like all my classes. Damn. So I think we're all going over to Alex's tonight. People should go. It might be fun. Amanda and Tom=cute. I hope I don't see Adan because i'm wearing his shirt that Avanti gave me. It's like bob marley. Party it up? ex.oh.ex.oh. OoO..What's everyone doing for Valentine's?

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February 8th, 2005

Time: 03:11 pm

Happy Birthday to me.

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January 25th, 2005

Subject: did you know i miss you? Time: 12:31 pm Current Mood: hot

Yeah, So I went and visited Lexi Baby and amber yesturday. :) I'm the luckiest. we had a photoshoot...goodtimes..i miss her. Adan, Amber and Alexia are too perfect. Love. Joe came over yesturday..he saw my new puppy C-jae. It was cool. I miss him. I hope he does good in his basketball game tonight. I had a dream i had blonde hair again last night..I miss it tons..damn. im.ready.for.another.dose.of.lexibaby. <3

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January 24th, 2005

Subject: kiss me once in the snow, i swear it never gets old Time: 11:28 am Current Mood: sleepy

Ohh yay, This weekend was pretty good. Saturday I went to Joe's game, they won :) so that was good, then we went to Lauren's house afterwords for a little bit. I love lauren's mom, she's so cute. Then on Sunday I spent the day with Joe..we busted out our ninja moves (i kicked his butt) i'm dangerous. Then I went home and we got a new puppy, her name is cj and she's been putting the moves on my cat. they're ruthless. Today I'm going to visit baby lexi and amber after school, I'm so lucky. me.wish.i.were.gangster. <3 ex.oh.ex.oh

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January 17th, 2005

Subject: J Time: 11:13 pm Current Mood: loved

Maybe it's the way that you look at me Makes me feel the way that I do maybe its your laugh or the way that you talk or as simple as the way that you walk i know its hard to explain but when I'm with you the sun seems to clear all the rain its only you that could do this to me Whenever I kiss you I get all dizzy I get this feeling down inside cuz then i know that your the only one that i wanna be with your the only one I want and every night when i go to sleep i know ill see you in my dreams cuz all the time you'll be always on my mind could it be your smile that'll bring me up when im feeling down It's only you that will make me feel alright It's only you It's only you I lost the love once before a missing place in my heart I couldnt take it anymore all this hurt i felt inside backed up in my soul it was getting so hard to hide then you came along you took the gray from my life you let me know without saying a word that things.. things would be alright things would be alright could it be your smile that could bring me up when im feelign down It's only you that could make me feel alright It's only you It's only you

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January 16th, 2005

Subject: SHe's here!!! Time: 08:24 am

Alexia was just born. Amber is still in recovery, things got crazy and around 7 she had to get a "c-section". Alexia Jade Lopez is so beautiful, she looks just like Amber, but with adan's nose. hehe. I'll post more later. With all my love for amber, adan and their new born baby daughter, alexia. <333

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January 15th, 2005

Subject: ALEXIA JADE LOPEZ Time: 10:21 am Current Mood: ecstatic

So I'm at the hospital right now. They have a computer in their waiting rooms? Crazy. But yeah Amber is dialated to about 4 cm now..we're lookin at probably going into labor around 4 in the morning. We've been here for ...ehh..well i got here around 5 and she was here a couple hours before that, so she's been having contractions since noon, so yeah it's been a long day for her! I Cannot wait for her to have Alexia. We're all sitting here going nuts. Alright..things are getting crazy right now so I'm gonna get off, I'll take some pictures and you'll get to see them maybe. <3 Trish ex.oh.ex.oh.

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